Phobia

The extreme fear of something, a silly thing to others is not a joke to people who suffer from it. Being a phasmophobic and a thalassophobic , I find day to day living a little difficult and terrifying. At first I thought it would go away over time. But the fear gradually increased without me knowing. I cannot sit peacefully without looking back frequently to make sure there’s no one behind me when I’m alone. I cannot see pictures of the blue and the big sea creatures. And I just cannot stand a horror film however spoof it might be. I just cannot. My spine shivers. And then I thought it would be common. It literally sparked the fear in me to a whole new level when I learned that none of my friends are scared of the things that I’m. Some of em even teased me when I confessed that I sleep with my mother besides me. I need to have a person near me facing my back when I sleep. Alone, my heart starts beating at a fast pace and I start to have panic attacks. Facing my back is to make sure that I’m not facing any paranormal being. (I don’t believe in ghosts but the fear is real)

I’m sure of the fact that I need help. From all sides. Maybe stop teasing about the fears. Maybe a counselling session. Or maybe a pep talk. It really helps. I cannot really openly talk about this to my family. We don’t have these types of fears in our Indian society or so I’ve been told. I’m terrified that I might even hallucinate. And I don’t want that.